My accident recovery and the challenges of being extremely unique in a spiritually backward world

Everyday I do left handed weightlifting along with rehab for my right arm/shoulder, an intense quarter mile run, many extremely intense and painful 3/4 of mile meditative walks! I do push my limits and the intensity of my meditative walks do make my pain in my right arm/shoulder worst! Being a spiritual pioneer that tries to challenge the limits of what I can handle spiritually, I try to make my cat-like crouched meditative technique even more intense so as to feel the pain even more acutely. I battle the pain in order to learn to handle it better, and also heal myself. The ability to handle pain really well is needed in order to develop the intense spiritual strength required to handle the really really serious problems of this challenging reality we are part of……………………………….
I do pay for how hard I push it with arm and shoulder pain at night! But, I am getting more use to intense pain and still get some good sleep! At least I can sleep lying down which I could not do for 4 weeks after the accident/fall/dislocated shoulder. More than a dislocation happened in this fall, my body is feeling pain in elbow, hand, and right side of chest! I did not think of other injuries when at the ER when I had a dislocated shoulder that demanded immediate attention. Have been on my own medically since that ER visit which suits me fine. I do best dealing with my medical issues on my own, and can not afford to do otherwise………………………………………………………………………………………………………
I do have serious survival issues that make so much in my life extremely difficult and society plays an extremely strong role in this due to its failures in serving me as well as it does others who have more “normal” needs! Society provides jobs, housing, and all sorts of public services for people who are very normal in their abilities, but is way too backward spiritually to understand and help address the basic need of someone as uniquely abled as me. People assume I fit in to society a lot more than I do and can be quite clueless as to the real circumstances I face trying to survive in this world. I am pretty much one of a kind and that is why I am the spiritual pioneer I am! I do not qualify for social security retirement due to limited work history and would not be alive today if not for the help of family and friends…………………………………………………………………
So many people with positions of power and influence in this world are really spoiled and arrogant, often blaming the victims of their inadequate policies/actions and abilities rather than becoming more responsible in their approach. They become too intoxicated by the money they make and power they are able to yield! Heavy spiritual consequences result in this highly technological age we now exist in when a society lacks an adequate level of spiritual maturity to deal with the serious problems within it! Seeing things from many sides and angles in all of its complexity is not easy! People often would rather have a tribal type mentality that irrationally ignores or condemns that which they are not familiar with! Religions and societies can be quite tribal and irrational in how they evaluate the value of what they believe to be true as compared to what others not in their group/ organization believe………………………………………………………………………….

Brains are required to push oneself extremely hard spiritually

People often think that people can work extremely hard at something and get nowhere.  But, what is really true is that one can not push yourself really hard if one does not know what one is  doing.  My really challenging spiritual/meditative exercise techniques enable me to get a lot more out of myself without harming myself.  When one pushes oneself really hard it is so easy to injure oneself.  People who work hard, but do not get smarter at how they do it will reach a point where if they push harder they will be unable to stay on the fine line that is required to keep them safe.  Ones needs to program oneself as to the smartest/best ways to do things safely.  When it comes to the spiritual which is wholistic one must have a strong grip on reality and really be tuned into how the spiritual actually works in order to safely push oneself extremely hard.  One also has to understand the physical/biological mechanics of meditation well enough to figure out how to get oneself safely into a really intense emotional/spiritual state and be able to handle it well.  One needs to have the knowledge in the area of physical fitness and nutrition in order to do what it takes to become healthy enough to handle the stress that comes with dealing with really intense and the difficult emotional/spiritual  states that really intense meditative states can put you in.

All strength comes from the physical, since the physical is hard and resistant.  Really effective spiritual training will strengthen ones physical connection with the spiritual and ones grip on the hard reality that we exist in in this physical world.  My meditative walking technique and my dumbbell swing exercise with its intense meditative breathing is really good at connecting one with the really hard part of reality we exist in.  Spiritual character and backbone does not come easy and requires really effective training techniques and the spiritual theories that give one a reason to put up with how difficult/torturous they can be.  Often people who do intense physical exercise refer to it as torture, but they are often not motivated with the most serious spiritual purpose for doing their exercise routine.

Effective spiritual exercise has to be so extremely rough,  since the spiritual deals with our reality at its roughest/harshest and the trauma and emotions that result from it.    We have so many serious problems in this world and those who truly understand these problems and really want to make a positive difference here will readily want to program themselves with the type of spiritual theories that will enable them to connect with our reality at its roughest and deal with the type of torturous spiritual training that can give them the spiritual strength and awareness to become capable of contributing in a really meaningful way to transforming this planet into a more humane place to exist on.   A lot of good  knowledge trial and error is required to become smarter in how you train yourself spiritually so that you can push yourself extremely hard and do so safely.  When pushing the edge spiritually one has to balance on a really fine line and one really has to know what one is doing in order to do this!

Here is a link to my blog on meditative exercise techniques with link to my dumbbell swing exercise provided at end of it:

My purpose and the purpose of the intense meditative and cardiovascular exercise I do.

I do really intense meditative and cardiovascular(heart&circulation)exercises that I designed to be as difficult physically and spiritually as possible.  I have been doing these exercises(meditative walking, running, and 13 minutes non-stop 2 handed 20lb non-stop (modified) dumbbell swing cardio exercise for a long time(from 2&1/2 years  with the dumbbell swings, to decades of running and meditative walking).   It takes a long time to get improve techniques and to get really good at it!  The desire for instant gratification really works against any successful spiritual/physical training program. I do stretching and warm up exercises before my more intense early morning exercise routines that involve running and again afterwards when it come to my extremely intense dumbbell swing routine.  I do stretch my back a number of times during my meditative walking/running routines.  I have to be on a really strict diet with supplements to help my body to handle this extremely demanding exercise routine.   I can not cover this all in detail here.  Here is a link to one of my word press blog post you may need to copy and past it into your browser:…

I do not really enjoy the exercises themselves since they are really hard to do.  But, I do enjoy the results I feel I am getting from them.  It is hard to bring different spiritual ideas to a world in which certain spiritual ideologies and mind-sets dominate.  I am still struggling to find not only a way to continue to survive in this world, but a way to contribute as best I can in the spiritual area where my abilities are really concentrated in.  My motivation is very much into helping to transform the spiritual shape this Earth is in.  Individuals tend to reflect the spiritual state of the social circles they are connected with.  I am one of the very few spiritually independent type spirits and tend to be very cut off from others spiritually.  I find people tend to fear anything unfamiliar to them spiritually which will affect how they intuitively respond to me.  I have to get so strong spiritually that I can overcome this resistance to me and to the type of spiritual energy/ideas I represent.  I have to know the dynamics of what I am dealing with, so that I can train in a way to overcome the dynamics that are impeding my progress in reaching other people on the level I require in order to be effective in this world.

This world will be facing some very challenging times in the future due to its resistance to progress/advancement in the spiritual area.  A lot of people are not in very good physical/spiritual(emotional) shape on this planet which really limits our collective ability to handle the extremely serious problems that come with the highly technologically advanced age we have just entered.  Our financial and political systems need to be improved if we are to better deal more effectively with these serious problems we have here on this Earth.  All is rooted in the spiritual, so we must first advance in the spiritual area in order to make further needed progress in other areas.

  • Thomas Goodwin "astrogoodwin"

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