My accident recovery and the challenges of being extremely unique in a spiritually backward world

Everyday I do left handed weightlifting along with rehab for my right arm/shoulder, an intense quarter mile run, many extremely intense and painful 3/4 of mile meditative walks! I do push my limits and the intensity of my meditative walks do make my pain in my right arm/shoulder worst! Being a spiritual pioneer that tries to challenge the limits of what I can handle spiritually, I try to make my cat-like crouched meditative technique even more intense so as to feel the pain even more acutely. I battle the pain in order to learn to handle it better, and also heal myself. The ability to handle pain really well is needed in order to develop the intense spiritual strength required to handle the really really serious problems of this challenging reality we are part of……………………………….
I do pay for how hard I push it with arm and shoulder pain at night! But, I am getting more use to intense pain and still get some good sleep! At least I can sleep lying down which I could not do for 4 weeks after the accident/fall/dislocated shoulder. More than a dislocation happened in this fall, my body is feeling pain in elbow, hand, and right side of chest! I did not think of other injuries when at the ER when I had a dislocated shoulder that demanded immediate attention. Have been on my own medically since that ER visit which suits me fine. I do best dealing with my medical issues on my own, and can not afford to do otherwise………………………………………………………………………………………………………
I do have serious survival issues that make so much in my life extremely difficult and society plays an extremely strong role in this due to its failures in serving me as well as it does others who have more “normal” needs! Society provides jobs, housing, and all sorts of public services for people who are very normal in their abilities, but is way too backward spiritually to understand and help address the basic need of someone as uniquely abled as me. People assume I fit in to society a lot more than I do and can be quite clueless as to the real circumstances I face trying to survive in this world. I am pretty much one of a kind and that is why I am the spiritual pioneer I am! I do not qualify for social security retirement due to limited work history and would not be alive today if not for the help of family and friends…………………………………………………………………
So many people with positions of power and influence in this world are really spoiled and arrogant, often blaming the victims of their inadequate policies/actions and abilities rather than becoming more responsible in their approach. They become too intoxicated by the money they make and power they are able to yield! Heavy spiritual consequences result in this highly technological age we now exist in when a society lacks an adequate level of spiritual maturity to deal with the serious problems within it! Seeing things from many sides and angles in all of its complexity is not easy! People often would rather have a tribal type mentality that irrationally ignores or condemns that which they are not familiar with! Religions and societies can be quite tribal and irrational in how they evaluate the value of what they believe to be true as compared to what others not in their group/ organization believe………………………………………………………………………….
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I am a “differently abled”spiritual pioneer trying desperately to elevate spiritual expertise on a backward planet

In order to advance to a higher level spiritually you must first develop the will to do so! Delusions are everywhere along with the irrational habits/ addictions that come with them. The mind can not perform on a really high level if one is unable or unwilling to do what it takes to become as healthy as one is able in order to maximize the unique abilities one possesses! I focus on intense physical-spiritual(meditative)training and a very strict healthy diet for that reason which I have developed over decades! We do live in a permissive age in which people who excel are often put down for hurting the self-esteem of those who do not! Limitations are part of life, so we need to figure out what areas we are good at and what areas we are limited in!

Our grip on the truth in the present is no where near as good as so many “professionals” would like you to believe! Often we only see how messed up things are when they become history, but are unable to see how inadequate we are in the present! It is easier to condemn the past, than to face the harsh realities in the present and our own inadequacies in understanding and addressing them! People will often put a positive spin on their reality in order to make them appear better so that they do not have to face how delusional or distorted their evaluation of their competence is when it comes to their ability at contributing to the state of well being of themselves and the world around them! Delusions develop when one puts a spin on reality like sales people and politicians often do! People often want to believe they know more than what real evidence actually exists! Conspiracy theories will develop supporting various ideological extremes when not enough solid facts exist or even when no really reliable information backs up their conclusions. Junk knowledge is everywhere today, just like junk food!! It is hard for that of real value to be found when so much junk is blocking the view!
People who are delusional and have irrational/unhealthy addictive(locked in) beliefs or habits will often become arrogant and quickly dismiss any growth in spiritual understanding that could threaten the delusional state that they so enjoy being in! How so many people are able to arrogantly tune out how messed up this world is spiritually is hard for those whose survival requires them to face this harsh reality to understand! Irrational beliefs/delusions and the arrogant attitudes that enable them are the enemy of those rational people truly trying to address the extremely serious problems of our modern age! Spiritual maturity is very lacking in an age in which selling intoxicating “feel good” creature comforts is what supports so much of the world economy! Addictions and delusions do tend to mess up individuals and societies as a whole and the crises that inevitably will result will force these people to face and address the reality they are fighting to avoid or else face really harsh and sometimes fatal consequences!
I have so much valuable spiritual stuff on the internet that need to reach the minority of people who are really searching for better spiritual understanding and thus will see the value of what I have come up with as a result of a lifetime of intensely focused creative spiritual effort and purpose! After this paragraph will be a link to links to my spiritual stuff on the internet that has not yet reach many people. I have a new astrology system based on very advanced spiritual theories that needs to be tested that can become the focus of a new spiritual movement! Science develops new theories and formulations that really impact our reality on this planet, the same can be done in the spiritual area!

Right Shoulder dislocation update: rehab and my extremely valuable spiritual purpose

I could not sleep lying down for 5 weeks due to pain and refused to take pain killers or to risk hurting arm in sleep! A few days ago, I found a position on my back with a pillow holding my arm up in a position it could tolerate, although it was still painful! I do seem to have rotator cuff damage limiting my arm movement and producing pain! I can now eat with my right hand, brush my teeth with both hands(right hand helping best it can) and use a can opener! I still type with my left hand only! I can lift water bottles(not huge ones) with right hand, but using biceps only! When I do my frequent meditative walks, I do alternately swing my arms toward the front of my body which should help loosen up my range of motion! I do carefully test my range of motion in my right arm and do experiment a little with exercises found on youtube videos on shoulder rehab.

Did not go back to VA hospital since emergency room visit at time of accident(very early morning Apr 01-Easter.) Gave up on VA hospital after finding a serious parking problems there(when going to a walk-in appointment 9 days after accident) with an awful lot of traffic circling the hospital over and over again trying to find any parking spaces that would become available. I was in severe pain due to discomfort related to being in car and dealing with seat belt and my friend who drove me was also not feeling well! I was going to tell them anyway, that I would do the rehab on my own while at that follow up appointment! I can not afford anything that could put me in more dire financial shape, and trust myself a lot more than the medical profession when it comes to understanding my neurologically different body which I am extremely tuned into spiritually due to intense effort at this over a lifetime!

I may not know exactly what is going on related to all the damage that occurred as a result of the fall, but I can still use my extremely well trained intuition along with my knowledge and research in health and healing to guide me. I have been avoiding outside medical help my whole life and depending on myself to keep myself healthy, so this approach is not new to me! I have dealt with quite a number of serious health situations in my life on my own, motivated to quite a degree by my financial situation along with my confidence in my own ability to handle it on my own! Healing has a very strong spiritual side to it, which science often underestimates! My focus being extremely on the spiritual allows me to come strongly from that direction when it comes to healing myself.

We are still so backward spiritually on a planet that tends to be very resistant to advancing further in a a rational way in this area! People like me struggle to exist despite having so much to offer! I am training spiritually to handle extreme pain lately in order to make me stand out to a really great degree spiritually from others. I have to go up against the arrogance that exists in a time in which so many serious problems exist that people so readily choose to ignore! Crises often are required in order for people to lose their spiritual arrogance and face the harsh reality with the humility required to do the hard work required to find and apply the answers and solutions needed to make this world a healthy place to exist on spiritually! I have done my part and I need people to value and utilize what I have to offer spiritually! I should not be struggling just to survive in this world! I have so much stuff on the spiritual that is all over the internet! Anyone who is into advancing themselves and this world further spiritually should be willing to explore the value of what I have come up with! The collective mindset on this planet is just to locked in spiritually, making it hard to get certain ideas to reach many people. I just have been pretty much ignored with few people even reading what I have presented over a decade of posting stuff on the internet. For those who are serious about making a positive difference spiritually here is my link to links to an awful lot of the stuff I have on the internet:

https://astrogoodwin.wordpress.com/2017/10/09/links-to-my-spiritual-stuff-on-internet/

Change in my new very advanced Astrology System

My astrology system is not mythology based like the traditional kinds created before science gave us the knowledge of what we were actually looking at in the sky! I actually have to have reasons behind the theories that I come up with to support it! It is a spiritual system, so I also have to have my intuition well tuned in spiritually so I make really good assumptions as to what is most likely true spiritually! I developed really advanced/difficult meditative exercise techniques over the 3 decades I was also developing my new astrology system to help me become tuned in enough spiritually to handle the extremely difficult task of developing an astrology system able to help people to individually and collectively handle the intense spiritual demands of the extremely challenging highly advanced technological age we now exist in!
This is my latest astrology chart change! I changed the orb for the aspects I use(00, 90,180&270 degrees)to 30 degrees! Maximum possible orb is 45 degrees! Theory is based on dividing maximum possible orb into 3 categories: making 0 to 15 degrees=above normal strength, 15 to 30 degrees normal strength and 30 to 45 degrees below normal strength! I then eliminate below normal strength as not strong enough to count on chart resulting in Orb of 30 degrees!!

Update on my shoulder dislocation recovery!

My arm may never completely recover, since I apparently had a lot of damage associated with the fall and dislocation Most people progress faster than I am! I most likely have rotator cuff(tendon) damage and maybe a fracture in my elbow. along with nerve damage and muscle tear! But, it will all heal well enough in time. The VA Hospital  did not check out more than what was required to relocate the shoulder with the specialist called in to the ER early Easter morning! Xrays where limited to dislocation site! But, I do have many good sources on the internet including videos to help guide me during the healing process! I trust myself more than the medical profession when it comes to figuring out the best course to heal myself. My nutrition and meditative exercises give me an advantage over others! It is true I have to be patient and weather the storm and pain that comes with it. But it is helping me get even stronger spiritually!

I do not advise anyone to do the type of risky things I do!  I only get away with it because of the unique abilities I was born with along with all the practice I have had during a lifetime of living on the edge physically and spiritually.  One can become very good at something when one does it over and over again and with great spiritual focus on getting away with it safely!  The desire to survive can enable one to do amazing things with what capabilities one possesses!

Value of inner and outer debates in order to get more of a handle on the truth!

I debate the value of my ideas within myself and with others! I appreciate those who can handle a rational debate on where the truth most likely lies. I am into spiritual growth, not just acceptance of ideas that a lot of people are overly attached to without much thought as to the real value they have in helping them perform well in this very complicated technological age we now exist in. People often think they have more of a handle on the truth than they actually have. Life is a complicated puzzle that will never be completely figured out. Mystery will always exist, which is a good thing! It takes a hard mental and spiritual effort to get more of a handle on what is true in any area one wants to excel in. Not questioning things or debating things is an approach that keeps people from understanding any subject more deeply! Some people just want to be around those who agree with them, and demonize those who do not! The truth is complicated, and requires the ability to see things from many sides and angles! I stay clear of people who stifle discussion!

How am I feeling 6 days after my shoulder was dislocated and put back early Easter Sunday?

At times not good at all: fever and nausea with intense pain in arm, at other times a lot better! Use ice on forehead and arm. Getting a little better over time. Must sleep sitting up using pillow on table or arm will hurt too much, Appointment Tuesday! Do not want to use the VA hospital too much! once cleared to rehab my injury I can do so myself using really good videos on youtube. I just did a lot of damage! I do not want a huge bill and do not trust the medical profession that much when it comes to understanding my unique body! I do feel that as soon as my tissues heals enough, I will start making really fast progress! I just have a very sensitive body that has been really pushed to the edge. But I am use to living on the edge and really trust my intuition will guide me well in the healing process! I do not take pain killers now, did take Ibuprofen at the beginning, but did not like the acid reflux and other side affects. So a lot of the pain is the result of this. But. I feel that I will heal faster if I feel the pain and am not knocked with pain killers. I am optimistic that I will come back stronger than ever! Tuesday will give me information on how the healing process is going! All so complicated. My body is use to being pushed hard by me, so I will continue to challenge it in any way I think will speed up its progress even if at times quite painful!

When I fell while doing a meditative walk in the dark last Saturday around 10 PM and dislocated my shoulder in rare posterior direction(3 to 6% of dislocations)and with the strong yanking done to get it back in place, muscle/tissue damage was done! I do not normally do well with the medical profession and my neurologically different body! I am good at doing my own research and self treating my own body! I am not concerned with it dislocating again since my body tends to be tight rather than loose which is what makes recurring dislocation more frequent and happen more often with younger people. My accident happened in a way that was like an instant complete stop upon forward moving impact with the ground and the impact was very violent and quite a shock! The dislocation did not happen easily!
My world has not fallen apart because of the shoulder dislocation that occurred as a result of a fall! I will make a fast recovery and still be more advanced in my meditative exercise techniques than anyone else afterwards, since I will not lose most of my head start I have as a result of all my past effort and training! I did have to make one more adjustment to my astrology system that only an accident like this one would force me to! I immediately was doing daily quarter mile painful meditative walks, and after practicing my running in short bursts inside my house for a while started doing daily runs of a quarter of a mile also! I will be ready! I will be doing some strengthening of my left arm soon so that it can help my other arm to be able to handle the type of 2 handed dumbbell swings I do sooner!
I have become a lot better at using my left arm and hand due to not being able to use my dominant right! Eating can be messy, but I am getting better at it. I do have finer motor skill limitations that affect my left arm/hand more tan my right. This was typed with one hand and mostly using two fingers on it!

Addictions tune one out from reality spiritually!

Included in addictions are anything one feels compelled to become strongly attached to despite their harmful impact on your ability to cope with reality! Cigarettes are extremely addictive and often are not considered for the spirit altering addictive impact they have on people! People would not smoke them and face the really harmful physical harm they do to them if they did not have such a psychological/spiritual hold on them! Food addictions also can be extremely strong and also can have a very negative impact on health! Obesity has reached an epidemic level in this world in recent times along with so many other serious health problems that result from overeating and eating unhealthy, but very addictive(flavorful)foods designed by the food industry to boost sales! One can develop enough hunger between meals especially if you exercise that you will find healthy foods attractive. Frequent small meals can help one to get a constant supply of nutrition! Just make them small enough that one will get a constant supply of nutrition!

Addiction to spiritual beliefs also cause harm by preventing people from improving them, which is really needed in an age in which advanced technology is causing so many serious problems that need to be addressed by people with their spiritual energy very tuned in and grounded in a rational way on the challenging physical reality we now exist in! Hedonism is the enemy of spiritual development, and is extremely present in this modern age we live in! The USA tends to have an economic system geared too much toward the pursuit of pleasure and unhealthy excesses!

Addictions also distort the mind making delusions more attractive than reality, and making the effort to connect with serious sources of information about the reality we exist in more difficult! So much misinformation is circulating in this world often that support extreme viewpoints which can be very intoxicating to those with out a good enough grip on the complex reality we exist in with all of its mysteries and variables that requires one being able to see many sides of any issue in order to figure out how to get a better picture of what is true. People often become addictive to extreme viewpoints and to the crazy conspiracy theories that support them! We have so many serious mental health problems in this world as a result of all the unhealthy addictions that tune people out from reality while harming their physical and spiritual health!

We badly need to advance further spiritually on this planet where its technology has advance a lot in recent history, but that has not advanced as much spiritually! We just do not have the spiritual maturity on this planet to handle the serious problems of our age. Addictions play a major role in holding us back spiritually! Addictions to the beliefs of the past keep us from developing a better spiritual connection to reality so that we can seriously recognize what we need to do to get more out of ourselves spiritually, and then as a result, better able to contribute in cooperation with others to making this world a better place to exist on!

I find that orgasmic like bliss and hedonistic desire hinder meaningful spiritual development

I am into leading a meaningful life! People like my healing energy and find my serious creative approach toward the spiritual often as quite entertaining despite its serious purpose geared to making a positive difference in a world that badly needs to improve the spiritual state it is in! It is true that I am not much into orgasms, since I tend to utilize my sexual energy for more serious spiritual purposes. Orgasm actually is not required in order to develop more intimacy sexually! And orgasm when it does happen can bring a deeper sense of closeness without putting one in some drug like “bliss” state! So many people are addicted to sex for how it makes them feel, and do not really connect really deeply with their partner! Most of us are just not very good at really connecting deeply spiritually with ourselves or others on this planet! People often feel strongly connected with others when they share drug like experiences that do not create really deep or meaningful connections with the level of understanding that comes with them! If we are to heal ourselves and our planet we have to take a lot more serious approach toward life and stop being so heavily into hedonistic desires.
Being in a blissful/intoxicated state tend to disconnect people from reality! So many people have spiritual beliefs that seek a blissful state, rather than the more serious state required to make a really positive and meaningful difference in a world that has so many serious problems that need to be addressed! We have so many harmful drugs in our society that handicap our ability to get the most out of ourselves spiritually and be able to be serious enough to do what it takes to heal ourselves and our planet! We have too many spiritual beliefs that support a type of intoxicating spiritual escapism that makes it difficult for people to focus their spiritual energy in a really serious way on the challenging physical world we exist in and all the serious problems that exist in it! We need spiritual theories that help us to better connect and cope with the reality we now exist in on this planet rather than the desire to escape from it!
I have so much valuable spiritual stuff of value on the internet representing a lifetime of intense spiritual effort to improve the spiritual theories and techniques that exist on this spiritually backward planet: https://astrogoodwin.wordpress.com/2017/10/09/links-to-my-spiritual-stuff-on-internet/

Moving toward eating healthier

I am not a professional in the field of nutrition, but do have a lot of understanding about diet from a spiritual perspective due to decades of focus in this area! Consulting with a competent medical professional with knowledge of nutrition is always advisable in order not to risk possible harm as a result of making drastic changes in ones diet! It can be quite risky if one does not know enough about what you are doing when making changes in your diet especially when they are quite strong ones!!!

Personally, I only eat food in order to perform better! I am extreme when it comes to my dietary strictness! My mainly oatmeal and cooked greens diet with vitamin and mineral supplements does enable me to push the edge intensely with the extreme spiritual-physical exercise routine I need to do to be the spiritual pioneer I am! Different diets work for different people! One needs to read up on diet from good/reliable sources and find the diet that works for you! Extreme diets like mine will work only for rare individuals with a very extreme focus on the spiritual with the extreme training and spiritual programming done over a long period of time that come with it! It takes a long time to adjust to an extreme type diet like mine and a lot of nutritional research and intuitive/spiritual awareness of what will work best for your individual/unique needs based on what types of demands you place on the body! Different body types are required to do different types of work and diets need to be tailored to meet the different demands put on your body! Again, nutritional experts should be consulted when needed to ensure one does not harm oneself with a diet that does not meet your needs well enough!

The body takes a while to change so one has to make gradually changes in it. One can not focus so much on weight, since it takes quite a while to lose it. One will feel healthier as you eat healthier and get more exercise! Walking is a good exercise to start with! Food can be very addictive since the food industry has designed a lot of its products to be that way. If you build up a good enough hunger you will find healthy food more appealing! You need to eat regularly so you get a constant supply of good nutrition especially protein! Eating small meals and lowering your daily calorie intake will help one to become hungrier between meals! One can eat less at a meal when one is less hungry and a little more when one is quite hungry! Building up a healthier appetite is good, but one should not go long periods without nutrition and stress the body too much!

Most people do not need a lot of protein, but a regular supply! Vegetables are important! The focus need to be on becoming healthier, and this takes time, but one will notice subtle changes over time. You will become more tuned in spiritually as you lose your addiction to food and eat mainly for health reasons! One needs to try to get one pleasure from doing positive things to make this world a better place by contributing what talent ones has to it. One needs to be spiritually strong in this world and understand that over indulgence and addictions are what is messing up this world spiritually! People just do not take this world and its problems seriously enough! Healing oneself and the traumas of ones past is not easy! One has to toughen oneself up, and that takes a continuous effort over a long period of time to achieve, But, one has to take one step at a time and understand that when one starts steering a good course in life one will get some benefits spiritually immediately! Remember that excess fat and refined sugar is what overloads the body with calories!

Here is a link to my blog post on this topic. We are all different so need to tailor our diet to fit what works best for us! https://astrogoodwin.wordpress.com/2015/08/28/the-diet-i-use-to-help-me-handle-my-intense-physicalspiritual-exercise-2/

  • Thomas Goodwin "astrogoodwin"

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